Yes. Totally addicted.
I don’t think I ever got so much benefit out of being really horribly sick as I did this week.
I got my Twilight books from Amazon (Who can beat Free UPS shipping?! LOL) on Friday, October 3. Started reading that night and read through like 5 chapters. I didn’t want to put it down! On Saturday, I read a bit more, and then went out with my Husband and my friend. We had a great time. I came home, read some more… Sunday, after church, I finished the book. I felt sad that it was over!
Then I started reading New Moon. I started feeling queazy. Ridiculously nauseous, stomach pains and a throbbing headache. I couldn’t lay down, I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t really comfortably sit either. So, I got out of bed and made as comfortable a place as I could with pillows on my bed and sat. And Read. Incredibly, the reading didn’t make my headache worse! It only made me feel LESS pain. So, in between my too frequent trips to the bathroom, I read through New Moon. Finally at about 4 or 4:30 in the morning, my headache and stomach gave me enough of a rest, so I got some sleep. Two hours. When I woke up for work, I knew I wouldn’t make it, so I called in sick and went back to sleep. I slept until 1 pm.
I thought I might be feeling better. But when I went to sit up, the pain was there again. Argh. At least I had more books! So I started Eclipse. I couldn’t get enough! I actually laughed and cried as if I was seeing a movie… (that and the throbbing in my head…) I went to bed late again. Again, I was in the bathroom way too much, and the pain would not let up. I woke up to “go to work” But my two late nights and my head got in the way, so I called in and said I would be late. Oh, so wrong. I went to the bathroom and was dizzy, and ever SOOO nauseous. For over an hour I was in the bathroom. I couldn’t go to work and at that state, I couldn’t even keep reading (SO SAD!). I called in sick, again. It was embarassing and made me feel so bad, but I couldn’t go. Once I got myself out of the bathroom, I went back to Eclipse. LOVED it, also, loved it!
I was glad by that afternoon, because I was able to eat something my husband brought me for dinner. Not much, but enough that I could chance work the next day. Still, I went to bed late, because my stomach didn’t really like food after two days…(Which means, I also got a chance to start Breaking Dawn…) I went through my day at work like a zombie, eating absolutely nothing but one cracker with some water the whole day. But I was happy to be back. I felt like an alien there, though!
That night, I continued Breaking Dawn. I had eaten, this time, something greasy (what I actually wanted) and my stomach was still quite mad at me, so I had to stay up late AGAIN. 2:30 this time. I hated it. But at least I had Bella and Edward with me (YEP, I’m that much of a freak! JAJAJA). I got up after less than 4 hours of sleep. My stomach was still iffy, so I waited a bit before going to work. Even going into the kitchen for some apple juice upset my stomach, so I decided against that. I got ready, and while waiting on my stomach’s decision, finished Breaking Dawn. I got to work, still feeling kind of weak, and this time, also feeling the withdrawal symptoms creeping up to me…
Yes, I missed it. I missed Bella and Edward and Alice… I was happy to be done with it, (and not feeling as sick) but I was sad that they wouldn’t be there anymore. I was glad that I hadn’t allowed myself to see the movie trailers or the pictures, because my mind’s eye Edward and Bella were much different. The environment, the scenery, the faces… Were very vivid in my mind.
I decided to read what was posted of Midnight Sun. I wasn’t sure if I would. But I couldn’t stop myself now. Wow, I loved that even more than I’d ever imagined. I did mourn for that one. The thought that maybe it would never be finished. Because it’s the best. In my mind at least. Edward’s point of view, it’s, it’s… Oh, I can’t even describe it. It’s much better than I ever even imagined. If it were up to ME, I’d have four additional novels. ALL the others from Edward’s point of view. I’m sure there could even be more, since there is SO much more story there…
I know I hadn’t written in a while. I’ve been in a very bad place. I’m trying to get it under control. It’s hard, so hard that at times I think I’m so overwhelmed that I won’t be able to break through. At times, I don’t know myself anymore. Actually, I think that I’ve come to realize that I never did know myself. And that is even scarier.
I know that THAT has nothing to do with Twilight. Or my addiction. I just thought I’d bury it under all of this jumbled mess of a post.
So, is there a twelve step program for Twilight addicts?