Tuesday battles… Only one more day of November left…

Tomorrow is the last day of this month of posting.

Even though I was successful in posting every day, I know I really wasn’t successful.

Most posts were fluff.

At least now I know I can post everyday. However, I may need to try this again soon, since I want some actual content to be involved.

See? My mind is constantly doing that.

I cannot concentrate on having posted for 29 continuous days. I need to hate the fact that my content wasn’t what I wanted it to be.

I cannot allow myself one small victory.

I need to dwell on its imperfections.

Guilt is my constant companion on this journey. I am not good enough, I am not doing enough, I am not worthy. I SHOULD be like…

You know. Constantly. It’s a never ending struggle. I want to get off. I keep trying to get off that path. I have good days. Busy happy days. I am SO eternally blessed.

But I can’t shake it.

Powerless.

Give up. That’s what I always want to do. Giving up sounds easy and it would take away all of the pain and pressure. Or so my mind would have me believe. Giving up would only bring a second layer of guilt. As it’s done before. Guilt is not my friend, as I’ve said. So, hard as it may be… Even if the fight goes on forever, giving up is not an option.

The train is coming.

Let’s take a breath.

Rejoice in the good.

Tomorrow is a new day.

Happy Thanksgiving!

In daily life we must see that it is not happiness that makes us grateful, but gratefulness that makes us happy.

 

Little post.

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Missing a partner in crime today. So I had these for lunch. I hope she’s having a great time! (and not missing me at all)

And these sweet plantain chips? They are addictive and amazing.

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Isn’t “Just Because” a beautiful thing?

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Lazy Sunday over here.

We had a very long fun day yesterday and today we’re relaxing. We’ll probably go out and get some stuff we need. But other than that? Just hanging out together.

Don’t you love my flowers? My husband surprises me like that every once in a while. And these? They are lovely and make me smile.

I hope you have a great day. Short work week coming up!

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Quickie Saturday Post

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I bought my dress!

Guess that means I’ll be going to my work Christmas party after all.

For now, you don’t get to see it. Just know it’s black and I love it and feel beautiful in it.

Soon, you’ll see it soon enough. Have a wonderful weekend. I sure am trying to.

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Thoughts on a Tuesday…

Just quotes today…

Battling. That’s the bad part of posting every day.

How much pain they have cost us, the evils which have never happened.
– Thomas Jefferson

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal
with the intent of throwing it at someone else;
you are the one who gets burned.
– The Buddha

For all sad words of tongue and pen, The saddest are these, “It might have been”.
– John Greenleaf Whittier

The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy.
– Jim Rohn

We must accept finite disappointment,
but never lose infinite hope.
– Martin Luther King, Jr.

See you tomorrow.

Birthday #3!!!

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Girly and dinosaur-y

Rad!!!

Now I’m off to sing some more Rock band with my BFF (who’s wearing a princess crown and a pink tutu).

This is awesome!!!

NaBloPoMo 2011

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